Taking a Break from Writing! (and Plants vs. Zombies)!Posted: November 29, 2011
I’ve been writing like *MAD* lately. Haven’t gotten around to my blog, though, because I’m focusing on frying the bigger fishies! But I thought blogging would give me a break from writing, even though they are one and the same, aren’t they?
I have also grown quite fond of this little game called “Plants vs. Zombies”! I don’t play it often, but when I am draining my brain with writing, word count, grammar, and all the rest of that stuff, I go on Facebook or Youtube (I’m now listening to Gerry Rafferty’s “Right Down The Line”), or I play PVZ.
On a sidenote, I have to say that Gerry Rafferty is just simply *AMAZING*! I love Baker Street. And maybe some of the fondness I possess for his music comes from hearing it on Art Bell. Listening to him takes me back to all those nights when I would do crafts while Art Bell was on, hanging out with someone very special. It was usually Friday or Saturday night. Sometimes we’d go grab some fast-food and see a movie, or maybe make our Deluxe Nachos waiting around for it to come on. Or listen to it and then go out, maybe to IHOP to get a meal in the middle of the night. It gives me this bittersweet feeling, and I miss that time, even though it’s long gone. Sometimes I guess you could say I’m still a little devastated that things didn’t pan out the way they were supposed to. There’s still some pain. It’s still tender. Certain things remind me of it and make me wonder what coulda-woulda-shoulda been. But I think I’m finally able to look back on the good times with fondness (How many times have I used “fond” in any tense in this entry? lol…I’d say “tenderness” but I already said tender, and I used “bittersweet” already…so instead, let’s just say “I get nostalgic” instead.) and just appreciate the fact that I had it, even if it was just for a while. And Gerry Rafferty gives me that old feeling again, though it does make me miss it. It was a long time before I could even bear to listen to Art Bell again.
So, even though I haven’t quite healed completely, and I wish I could go back in time and do things over, but the sad fact of the matter is that I can’t. And the reason I can’t is because I don’t have the funds to build a time machine! But holding on to your first love isn’t easy. Maybe I was too immature or selfish, I really don’t know.
But I’m happier now. There were so many things I wanted to do but couldn’t, and I feel like I finally have freedom to just be ME 😀
And, for the record, if I did have a time machine, I don’t know whether or not I would have done it all over again. The good times were worth it, but it made the denouement all the more painful.
And while I don’t have a time machine, I still have Gerry Rafferty. ❤